K is away tonight

Feeling a bit fed up right now as K is away for the night with work, I always feel a bit down when she is not around, she is my rock, my light, my world. They are all good positive things and even just writing those words I feel more upbeat. The power of writing or even just saying positive things is amazing and should not be forgotten. I will get back to my work feeling much better now :-)

I have published my poems....

.... I have opened a Scribd account and uploaded  the 6 poems I have put on my blog so far. OMG they have been read by people, somewhere in the world. I am so excited! I have neved considered other people reading my poems. I really am excited and can't wait to tell Kirsten.

All future poems will be published direct to Scribd and I will use this blog for my life!

http://www.scribd.com/NickBest

Poem: The Banker (written about the Financial Crisis)

The banker is a wanker

The country's up the wall

The banker is a wanker

He's gone and spunked it all

The banker is a wanker

Still expecting his bonus

The banker is a wanker

Paid by all of us

The banker is a wanker

Spending all our cash

The banker is a wanker

Hit the button, gone in a flash

The banker is a wanker

Thinks he'd better than us

The banker is a wanker

What's with all the fuss

The banker is a wanker

Here we go again

The banker is a wanker

More money to spend in vain

The banker is a wanker

Government bailed him out

The banker is a wanker

Our money he will flout

Poem: Acid Rain

If the rain that fell was acid

And the food we ate were pills

The world would be a happy place

No guns no fights no kills.

If the snow that fell was coke

And the salt on chips was speed

A violent world would follow

My warning you should heed.

The legals become illegal

Then others take their place

Plant Food is now king

What's next? Watch this space.

Poem: Snow

It's starting to snow

Laying on the grass

Will it go quick

Or take time to pass

Will it lay thick 

Or will it lay thin

Very cold out 

Best to stay in

Walking boots on

To prevent a slip

Best be safe

Don't want a broken hip

I like the snow

Some people moan

Problems with journeys

All want to get home

England's normally wet

This time it's white

The sky is all dark

That chill it does bite

Enjoy it now 

It will soon be gone

The summer will be here

Let's hope it's not long

Poem from Emily (sent 03/11/09)

hello daddy,

The poem you wrote me was very touching, whenever i read it i get tears in my eyes. I thought i'd write you one in return, im e-mailing it to you because it is luck for your operation. So, here it goes;

Dad I love You With All My Heart

You And Kirsten Are Always On My Mind

It Doesn't Really Matter That We Live Far Apart

You, Me And Kirsten, Together We Bind

I always make you proud of me

That is one of my many dreams

My love for you no-one can buy

You dont understand what this poem means

To me you are the greatest father figure

The person i can always look up to

We go together like Pooh and Tigger

No dad could ever be as great as you

I love coming to your Liverpuddlien home

And meeting all your clubbing friends

Our relationship has definately grown

My discription for you never ends

I put my heart and soul into this little rhyme

I prey that you liked reading it

I know that it is just a mere few lines

But i edited this poem bit by bit.

THANKYOU FOR BEING THERE DADDY I LOVEYOUU X X X X X X X X

The First 5k Run of the Year

Last night we ran our 1st 5k of the year :-) We have been eating so much more healthily since Christmas and K has produced some amazing dinners and home-made soup all with her own stock, none of that salty bought rubbish!

We actually ran most of the way only walked for about 10 seconds mid-route and then from the post box to the house which I count as a warm down. It was a major achievement and now we have started again I do believe we will keep it up and soon be reaping the benefits of our fitter bodies and minds. On the Monday we did buy some running tights and other running gear so although we spent money, when you have new running gear you gotta use it!

This morning we are tired and a bit achy but it's all good! K may do her Tibetans and I may try a bit of exercise ball work.

Healthy body = Healthy Mind: PMA all the way!! (Positive Mental Attitude)

Emily's 13th Birthday Poem (11/10/09)

A Poem for Emily’s 13^th Birthday

You’re going be a teenager

Another year has gone

Better to write a poem

Than an embarrassing song

Your thirteenth birthday is here

That is a kind of mad

For all those thirteen years

I am proud to be your dad

I look forward to your future

And see what you will do

As long as your are happy

That’s all I ask of you

You are the greatest daughter

You always make me smile

My love for you is stacked so high

In an un-measurable pile

Though we are not always near

We are never far apart

Think of all the jokes we play

Pull my finger and drop a fart

You are my special girl

And much more fun we will have

Happy thirteenth birthday Emily

With love from your dad xxxxx

My Heart

I have just calculated my heart age using the Flora Heart Age Calculator and for a 43 year to have his heart age calculated at 55 may not be good. So I know I should not smoke but I am getting ready to quit, state of mind and will power is important, and I am not just using that as an excuse to put it off. I have smoked now for 30 years and am aware of the damage it does and keen to kick the habit.  I am 6' 3", weigh 14st 10lb which gives me a bmi of about 25 which is high but not only borderline off healthy.

I do, however, have to question how they can make that calculation with minimum information and they didn't ask me any food questions, I don't eat ready meals, very rarely eat take-aways, Ok the drinking had started to creep up but we have even decided to give that up too; 1. because of money and 2. we felt better not drinking. We don't have a car so do a lot of walking. We are starting to go running again tonight because we know we should be fitter and this sudden surge activity isn't to do with some heart age calculator.

Maybe I am not given this piece of software justice and it is accurate so I will look at my heart age of 55 being a positive and good thing.....

My heart is legendary and has matured beyond it's natural age

It is full of love, and the experiences it encountered through my life

 has made it grow and become mature. 

It is a wise heart who can not be fooled or given the run around. 

If my heart had glasses they would be half ones and my heart would peer over them in a knowing confident way. 

Young hearts would look up to it and they would all gather round to listen to its stories and tales with open eyes.

 My heart has been in battles and has been hurt on many occasions, 

but it is strong and keen to live on! 

I love you Kirsten! xx

The White Isle Beckons

I find myself taking a cigarette break at work and stand outside the back door on a cold, rainy day, typical of this time of year, thinking of that White Isle and how great it would be to live there! An urgent plan is required. Maybe if we clear those plastic cards as we promised to do, a holiday there this year at least. It is the one place we really come alive and it's not just about the partying, it's about being the real us. We both feel like we belong there and we settle in to the way of life, dressing down in flip-flops, shorts and t-shirts all day long, that is how I am meant to dress. not long trousers, jumpers and coats.

We were born to be in Ibiza and Ibiza was born for us!

Poem: Just a Tad (Written on the 79 going home 01/02/10)

Just a Tad

Sometimes I'm good
Sometimes I'm bad

Sometimes I'm annoying

Well, just a tad

Sometimes I laugh

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I am sad

Well, just a tad

Sometimes I am funny

Sometimes I am silly

Sometimes I am mad

Well, just a tad

Sometimes I try
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes I'm Lazy
Well, just a tad

I want to live

I am in love

My life is great

And not just a tad

No Facebook - I'm free!

Well it has been about a month since I deleted my Facebook account and I feel free!!! It became an issue when I was planning my day around playing Mafia Wars and that was the time to just say no!

I also got sick of being drawn in to friends leading and miserable status bars! There is a lot wrong with Social Networks and I hope their demise will come sooner rather than later. People's social skills are being eroded away by this anti-social self gratification type website! I guess it's a good thing to use if you don't have any social skills and no friends but apart from that people should interact with others in a social environment!

Three Silver Bracelets

When K and I were holidaying/partying in Ibiza last year a thought came in to my head that  I needed to wear 3 solid silver bracelets but all different designs all the time:

1x represents love (to love and be loved)
1x represents strength (to have strength and to give strength to others)
1x represents friendship (to have proper friends and to be a proper friend)

These are the only three things I need in my life which I am lucky enough to have,  I hope that others can feel that I give them too.

If I feel that one of my proper friends needs a power up or support I may lend them out so they can feel and use the force that the particular bracelet represents.

My proper friends have all the above elements themselves but do not have to have a representation of it. Why do I need to have representation?

Tana Ramsey a celebrity?

Eating lunch and reading the BBC website I stumble across the headline "Tana Ramsey out of Dancing on Ice  - Gordon Ramsey's wife Tana has become the latest celebrity to be voted off ITV1's Dancing On Ice show".

Since when has the partner of a celebrity (I use the word celebrity loosely) been a celebrity?

Fax to the Prime Minster 19/01/10 re: Haiti

Fax Message re: Haiti

To: The Prime Minister (fax) 020 7925 0918

Date: Tuesday, 19 January 2010

Cc (by email):

Nick Clegg

David Cameron

Sam Daws 

José Manuel Barroso

President Barack Obama

From:

(Info removed for public publishing!)

Dear Mr Brown

I, like many others, are saddened by the events in Haiti and wish the country a speedy recovery though I feel it will be a long and painful one. 

Nature is a powerful force and I believe that natural disasters such as this will be on the increase around the world including our own Country. Are there adequate contingencies in place to deal with a disaster such as this considering our days of being a self-sufficient island are long gone?

The relief effort organised by many countries is commendable but I am dismayed at the time it is taking to get it to the outer-lying regions. I also understand that security measures must be put in place for the safety of everyone in Haiti as people become hungry, frustrated and martial law begins to take over.

However I am extremely concerned with the Agenda of America in this relief effort especially taking in to consideration its position to Cuba. An aircraft carrier was quick to assist and now we hear that aid is being delayed getting in to Haiti due to the volume of US military aircraft flying in to the country as well as America taking over control of the airports.

To be honest this is beginning to sound like a military take over and I am hopeful that the UK, The United Nations, European Union will be strong enough to maintain some control of the situation and ensure the people of Haiti and the rebuilding of the country remains the main priority.

I would welcome comments and assurances from all recipients of this email.

Yours sincerely

Last Night I Ate a Scorpion!

Yesterday evening we drank a couple of bottle of nice Shiraz wine and then emptied the dregs from the drinks cupboard (not a good idea). About 4 or 5 years ago Max and Glen bought me a small bottle of Vodka for in a secret-santa I think, inside the bottle was a scorpion which had been prepared for human consumption and last night I ate it (K has the photos on her phone to prove it).

Definitely going to stop drinking for a while now, I felt so much better for the 2x weeks after new year I abstained!

Stressful Times

There seem to be so much going on in our lives at the moment and it puts added pressure on us! Aunty Mary next door with her dementia, knocking at the front door many times a day, I know she can't help it but when you have to go in to just turn the telly down or change channels it can get a bit annoying, K's nan being in hospital who is not well and not eating is upsetting to see.

Caring for people is a good thing but we have to live our lives too.

Am I being selfish with that last comment?

Another year another attempt at blogging!

Well here  I am again, attempting to do another blog! I think I managed about 7x posts last time after bigging the idea up to my friends and saying what a great thing it was and how I found it therapeutic to empty my head in a blog! haha. Well this is post one and if I make it past post 7 I guess it has been a success!