My thought of the day!

Your ego stops you from getting on with your life.

Mohawk to Nohawk

My mohawk, which reappeared last year in Ibiza after about 25 years has, again, been removed. Let's be honest to carry off a mohawk properly you have to be confident in yourself and not be intimidated by others, or be bothered by people staring at you as that's what people do. I am not feeling confident enough to wear it and I wasn't doing it justice. K was doing a fab job of cutting it in and shaving my head but for now I am sporting a shaved head, which i have had for many years before. I am sure I will be sporting my mohawk again soon :-)

Emotional Roller coaster

Today I made a personal observation, not ground breaking stuff but here goes............................. My emotions through the day are like a roller-coaster, one minute I am confident and positive and the next I am fed up and can't see the point etc. Now here it comes ..................... I reckon everybody else is the same < The crowd gasp at how long it took him to get this, then give a standing ovation>.

I can't help feeling fed up sometimes and the more I try to rectify it the more I think about it and the worse it is?! So just letting happen in the moment, acknowledge the fact that is how I am feeling and just get on with it, I reckon I should return to positive thoughts quicker that way?!

If I could just solve the work situation and be happy with what I do, I reckon I have nailed it! I have a parter I love to bits, a great daughter, fab friends, just got to be happy with my work and all will be good. K being better would be great but me walking about being fed up with work ain't helping so I shall sort myself out!

As Ronan once said...........Life is a Roller-coaster, you just got to ride it!!!!

PMA! all the way!!!!!

The Weekend Reviewed:

Had a fabulous weekend :-) From shopping on Friday with a Morissons Curry for two, gardening Saturday, Sunday and Monday (due to my 4x day week). Been knackered every night due to gardening for over 6 hours a day, but as K would say "Good, honest tiredness" due to hard labour in the garden. It was great to spend time together laughing and chatting while doing the garden. On Saturday we removed the little garden area under the kitchen window ready for grey slate to go down, tidied the garage, planted plants. K cut down the rose bush by the blossom tree and we removed the root. I also removed a big old shrub from the bottom right hand side of the garden and removed the rotten old root too! K planted some plants round in the front garden while I removed some weeds from the front path. Then, oh yes there is more, we popped round Aunty Mary's put a handle up by her back door and tidied her garden a bit too! Sunday was also spent gardening including cutting down a rotten stump from the cherry tree and screwing a corner shelf I found in the garage on it to create a "bird plateau" haha :-) Aunty Mary had a doctors visit on Monday morning, we then made a quick trip to the shops then home to continue working in the garden, don't want to waste God's good sunshine now! Really enjoyed the weekend of good times; good food and better company.There is also an important point i need to make and that is < cue fanfare from trumpts> We didn't drink any alcohol at all, in fact we haven't had any alcohol since Wednesday last week!

The need to sort my life out! PMA all the way!

I have decided this Friday lunchtime that enough is enough and a good dose of PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) is required for both me and K! We should concentrate on the positive things in life how good it is to be alive. If we want something to happen - it is up to us to change it! Don't dwell on shit - make shit better or not worry about the shit at all!!

I am really chuckling at this now, I had a moment of PMA and enlightenment, then phoned K and passed my enthusiasm on, which she embraced and is on the roller-coaster with me and and it all starts when I get home We will release the break and go on this PMA journey together!! Bring it on!! Obviously in the back of my mind there is this nagging doubt and we will slip back in to our ways, but I shall put that out of my mind again < pushes nagging doubt to side of head using special powers, out the ear and hears it go "thud" on the floor> . I can't wait to get home to the love of my life and brace for the PMA ride :-) woo hoo! Strap us in, we are going on the ride of our life!!! :-))

Feeling the need to get Inked again!

It's about time I added some colour to my last tattoo! It must be about a year since my Thai Warrior was done, means more to think it was a photo we took in Thailand :-) It will be staying mainly plain but green needs to be added to the leaves and I the national flower is pink with yellow stamens, as far as I remember! There is about 3 hours left to do in colouring but I will book in a short, cheaper session for now. So I am well on the way to completing all of my left arm now. I have Kirsten written in Thai on the inside of my left forearm and Buddha with 7x waves on my forearm. I always forget the skull tattoo on the back of my neck (which is currently my profile picture). Any way back to the subject in hand, my left arm, I want an elephants eye with a waterfall coming out of the wrinkles below the eyes and then the rest of the arm can be made up of Thai patterns!  Bring on the pain!!

Insomnia Again and the Alcohol Connection AARRGHHH!!!!

Insomnia, that bastard, came to visit me last night. Haven't suffered from it for ages but he visited last night and stayed quite a while! Soooooooooo frustrating but I think I know the reason for his visit ....... have been drinking wine and beer quite a bit over the last few weeks but stopped a few days ago as I don't want to drink all the time. Whenever I stop drinking all together I get what K calls "the terrors" which consists of the sweats and insomnia, brain going in to over-drive as soon as you turn the lights out and lay your head on the pillow - AAARRRGGHHH!!!

  It's not that i have a problem with drink but I do enjoy a drink in the evening, chillaxing and watching tv, like most people really :-) But I don't want to drink all the time as it does become habitual and I want to get fit. I am 43, smoked since I was 13 and drank from then too I guess as well as the other thing through most of my life too. It is time to realise that every thing is good in moderation but it is time to make a bit more effort in looking after myself. I enjoy running, well sometimes I do. Maybe when we have a bit more money we should buy a couple of bikes as that is my favourite method of staying fit, but money is tight, that will have to wait and make do with what we have: fully functional legs, well sort of! hehe