Mohawk to Nohawk

My mohawk, which reappeared last year in Ibiza after about 25 years has, again, been removed. Let's be honest to carry off a mohawk properly you have to be confident in yourself and not be intimidated by others, or be bothered by people staring at you as that's what people do. I am not feeling confident enough to wear it and I wasn't doing it justice. K was doing a fab job of cutting it in and shaving my head but for now I am sporting a shaved head, which i have had for many years before. I am sure I will be sporting my mohawk again soon :-)

The need to sort my life out! PMA all the way!

I have decided this Friday lunchtime that enough is enough and a good dose of PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) is required for both me and K! We should concentrate on the positive things in life how good it is to be alive. If we want something to happen - it is up to us to change it! Don't dwell on shit - make shit better or not worry about the shit at all!!

I am really chuckling at this now, I had a moment of PMA and enlightenment, then phoned K and passed my enthusiasm on, which she embraced and is on the roller-coaster with me and and it all starts when I get home We will release the break and go on this PMA journey together!! Bring it on!! Obviously in the back of my mind there is this nagging doubt and we will slip back in to our ways, but I shall put that out of my mind again < pushes nagging doubt to side of head using special powers, out the ear and hears it go "thud" on the floor> . I can't wait to get home to the love of my life and brace for the PMA ride :-) woo hoo! Strap us in, we are going on the ride of our life!!! :-))

My Heart

I have just calculated my heart age using the Flora Heart Age Calculator and for a 43 year to have his heart age calculated at 55 may not be good. So I know I should not smoke but I am getting ready to quit, state of mind and will power is important, and I am not just using that as an excuse to put it off. I have smoked now for 30 years and am aware of the damage it does and keen to kick the habit.  I am 6' 3", weigh 14st 10lb which gives me a bmi of about 25 which is high but not only borderline off healthy.

I do, however, have to question how they can make that calculation with minimum information and they didn't ask me any food questions, I don't eat ready meals, very rarely eat take-aways, Ok the drinking had started to creep up but we have even decided to give that up too; 1. because of money and 2. we felt better not drinking. We don't have a car so do a lot of walking. We are starting to go running again tonight because we know we should be fitter and this sudden surge activity isn't to do with some heart age calculator.

Maybe I am not given this piece of software justice and it is accurate so I will look at my heart age of 55 being a positive and good thing.....

My heart is legendary and has matured beyond it's natural age

It is full of love, and the experiences it encountered through my life

 has made it grow and become mature. 

It is a wise heart who can not be fooled or given the run around. 

If my heart had glasses they would be half ones and my heart would peer over them in a knowing confident way. 

Young hearts would look up to it and they would all gather round to listen to its stories and tales with open eyes.

 My heart has been in battles and has been hurt on many occasions, 

but it is strong and keen to live on! 

I love you Kirsten! xx

Three Silver Bracelets

When K and I were holidaying/partying in Ibiza last year a thought came in to my head that  I needed to wear 3 solid silver bracelets but all different designs all the time:

1x represents love (to love and be loved)
1x represents strength (to have strength and to give strength to others)
1x represents friendship (to have proper friends and to be a proper friend)

These are the only three things I need in my life which I am lucky enough to have,  I hope that others can feel that I give them too.

If I feel that one of my proper friends needs a power up or support I may lend them out so they can feel and use the force that the particular bracelet represents.

My proper friends have all the above elements themselves but do not have to have a representation of it. Why do I need to have representation?